the truth

1/11/2005 10:08:00 PM 0 Comments »
the truth is.. i hate myself.

i hate myself so much.

i hate my body.

i hate every single inch of my body.

i hate my face, my nose, my lips, eyes, skin, fingers, nails, legs, thighs, calves, toes, every little aspects of me.

i hate my life.

i hate my fucking life.

i hate mirror.

all i can see is an ugly and stupid person who tries to fit into her surroundings. she tries hard, really hard to understand, but she's failing. such a weak and useless creature who is a total failure.

those who love her are blind.

"why do you like you bring yourself down?"

i dont know.

all i know is that i hate me. hate all about me.

i'm alright. i'm okay. i just happen to hate me. no harm done.

if a car happens to hit me tomoro, or if lightning strikes me tomoro, i wouldnt mind. like i care. i dont mind being dead. like i care about me.

no one, i mean no one, should raise this topic again to me. it's just a thought of mine, about me. nobody should concern. like anyone would concern about me.

just like this topic to be left alone.