4/17/2008 02:46:00 AM 0 Comments »
i'm still in kl. i'm a bit bored.

someone is angry at me for being ignorant. huh. tell me how to deal with that.

everyone close to me knows that i can be really ignorant if i want to. guess he doesnt know about that. guess i dont know that he's very sensitive when talking about politics.


two things that i dont like in this whole world, more like i hate and dont believe in, are politics and business. everyone knows that. almost.

i know that sometimes being ignorant is wrong and unsuitable, especially since we're now living in this ever changing world. like the issue of recycling and global warming, i do play my part, like i choose to walk instead of taking a vehicle and choose a fan instead of an air-conditioner. but when people start talking about politics, i give up. i dont do politics. i think it's dirty and manipulative, although i also know that it's essential. and this is my belief and my opinion and i stand by it, AND i dont ask anyone to believe my belief, i dont force anyone to follow my opinion.

so i was quite annoyed when someone who knows me for years seems to be annoyed and angry with me for being ignorant about politics. and i didnt even mention the things above. i was just refused to join in the discussion and went silent.

before i start using abusive words, i think i should stop. i dont want the new calm and relax me, that i've been building up slowly for the past few months, to just fade away. it's not worth it.

anywhere but here, anyone but me

4/11/2008 02:41:00 AM 0 Comments »
okeh i've got 5 minutes to spare so here goes

i'm in kl at the moment. good news for someone, i hope. i myself prefer to stay in kuantan where i have my own room, my own bed. but kl at the moment is fine. weather is not too hot, so it'll be alrite. plus i've got to see that someone everyday, so it is alrite.

i had a good walk yesterday. i used to walk a lot when i was in the uk, but people in malaysia seldom, or never walk. weather factor i guess. plus the public transport is cheap too. and petrol is affordable as well. but i love to walk. good for my emotional and physical being. yesterday i walked from sogo, along jalan TAR then tembus semua house ke masjid jamek, then found my way to azali's office at menara olympia. it was a good walk i tell you.

i think i'm becoming more personal at the moment. it's hard for me to share my feeling and thoughts anymore with anyone. it used to be easy to just release it all, but not anymore. i now prefer to swallow everything and keep things to myself. and it's hard when people around you keep asking what's going on in my life. if it's anyone else, i'll say to just fuck off, but the thing is, it IS their business as well. and i found it really awkward and very VERY uncomfortable to bear my thoughts and feeling when i dont feel like doing it.

anyway, time's off. got to go.