barcelona in 30 hours

12/16/2006 12:20:00 AM 0 Comments »
helo..selamat pagi.. it's half 1 in the morning and i cant sleep. camne nak tido, dah tido ptg tadi sampai almost 2 hours.. alamatnye skrg tak leh tido la..

anyway, my christmas hols has officially started. had my last day of the term, in this year, yesterday. i managed to finish and hand-in my ethics essay yesterday as well. hope i pass. hope everything will go as planned, amin.

am going to barcelona tomoro. excited? i know i should, but awkwardly, i didnt feel anything. not sure why though. whenever i go for a trip in the past, i would always be super anxious, super excited, but this time, dunno, dont feel a thing. hmm let me think.. oh yeah.. all my trips in the past had involved me going back home, ie going back to malaysia, and of course i would be super happy and super eager to jump to a 12-hour flight to see my beloveds back home. and i just realised that i havent had any personal 'recreational' trip for quite some time. last time i went abroad other that to malaysia was to paris, and that was ages, AGES, ago. of course i go to glasgow every now and then to visit oja (in fact i'm going there again on the 27th of dec) but that doesnt involve a flight, to a new undiscovered country, like barcelona. so at the moment i'm not sure what i feel. should i feel excited? i think i should but there is still something missing. i have started packing, but that doesnt involve much, i am going for 4 days only, and i'm not bringing any extra presents or anything in my luggage, so packing this time only took 10 minutes. where else in the past i would pack as early as 3 to 4 months earlier whenever i go back to malaysia. hmm i have another 30 hours before my trip, hopefully my adrenaline has kicked in at that time..

picture time!

this is kakak saya. die baru bertunang minggu lepas. muka bulat, tapi bmi 19 ahaks. i think she'll kill me if i put her pics here, but i dont care, it's my blog, and it's also a way of me knowing that she is INDEED reading my blog (kantoi..)
anyway, i think she looked lovely. fine, i might be bias, she is my one and only sister, and she has been a very good one, so of course i think she looked gorgeous. well, she is the fair one in the family, and she does indeed has the pure-est of heart among us (hehe). i know we do have our differences, but nonetheless, i love you loads kak lysa! may she finds her happiness, hopefully next may (HU HU i cant attend her wedding! still cant believe it) for she is one of the nicest people i know, honestly.
ok, change topic please. 3 weeks hols.. what shall i do? the 1st week: barcelona. then the week after that: glasgow. though i'm only going there for 2 days. then..lepak la ape lagi. golek2 on my beloved bed, enjoy the companies of my teddies (and my housemates hehe), can masak2 as often as i like (this depends on my mood), got to find some good books to read (ct has lots and lots of fiction storybooks that she recommends so i shall try to read one or two). but i think what i should definitely do is to enjoy this break. it's going to be a hell of rollercosters next term, i'm gonna work hard like i never work before, i'm going to change myself to a machine (not literally tho) so i should enjoy this break as much as i can. i'm going to relax myself, be calm as much as i can, if i can afford it, go to a massage or spa (fat chance. after barcelona AND boxing day sale in glasgow?? super fat chance. but one can always angan2 right. or pie merengek to mama with some hope that she'll pay for the massage. nah. super fat chance).
anyway, i'm off to bed now. not sure what else to do. almost everything about the barcelona trip are sorted. only need to go to town tomoro to change pound money to euro. there's no one at home for me to call. kak lysa is in jakarta now. die SUPER kaki jalan. mama and abah at jakarta too, for a totally different reason (golf trip.. dont ask me.. cant believe it myself). iwan, jiman and meda (my sis-in-law) are in kuantan. maybe i'll call iwan. he's having his term break as well. well, i can also talk to meda about... babies! i am so maternal nowadays, bloody hell i cant believe it myself. everytime i go to baby's shop, kononnye nak survey pushchair for my sis-in-law who is pregnant 3 months, i always, i mean ALWAYS buy some baby stuff, from super cute t-shirts to super-duper-word-cant-describe cute baby's shoes. i've bought 5 baby's t-shirts, 2 baby's shoes and some baby's socks. ga ga ga malunye nak admit... tapi tak ape la.. my time will arrive soon (i can hear azali's shivering.. ahaks.. he, for those who doesnt know, has this 'thing' with commitment.. and responsibility... and view and hopes for the future. he believes in the'present' only and refuses to plan too further ahead. i dunno.. it's his thing.. but i guess he does that to avoid dissappointment.. especially when he is engaged to an unpredictable, problemsome girl.. namely me haha)
oklah, off to bed now. enjoy your weekend!

sunday, sunday, sunday..

12/10/2006 03:25:00 PM 0 Comments »
happy sunday everybody..

i once said that i hate sundays as it means the (long) weekdays are coming, but today is exceptional. i've had a long weekend, started on friday, and the best of all, i managed to do lots of work! i managed to finish my oh-so-horrible-but-i-dont-care-as-long-as-i-finished-it-ha-ha ethics essay, so that's good. and i managed to clean and clear my room. you cant believe how many things i have accumulated for the 6+ years i'm here, so it's that time of the year again when i need to clear my room or else i wouldnt have any space to do work. so i bought a few storage boxes from argos (9 in total) and spent about 6 hours clearing my room on friday night. and now my room is clear! and organised. and i like that :)

another 1 more week to go before the christmas break. exactly today next week, i'll be in barcelona la la la. we are going there for 4 days and oh boy i cant wait. i vow not to spend on anything unnecessary this week so that i'll have that extra money to spend in barcelona. i hope i'm not going crazy on the sight of mng and zara stores there (they are from barcelona you see). and we are going to one of the factory outlets as well! ha ha senyum sampai telinga. some people might want to go there for its beautiful sight, tasty food and interesting culture and of course i want it too but shopping is one of my main reason too. and of course i want to go there to spend some good time with my housemates. 5 more weekdays to go!

some news from home. kak lysa is officially engaged. they said the ceremony went well. they said kak lysa was fair and beautiful in her new peach mini kurung. they said the food was good. they said they would email me some photos soon. it was all 'they said' and i'm a bit annoyed. for not being there. even azali was there. well everyone was there. and i'm 101% certain that i wont be able to attend her wedding if it's in May. fine. FINE. there's nothing that i or anyone can do. lets just leave it there.

lapar la plak. it's too cold to leave the house. nak masak takde bahan. shall we have food delivery tonight, ellina? pizza ada, kebab ada, nasi beriani pun ada hehe

back in newcastle

12/06/2006 05:41:00 PM 0 Comments »
helo.. i'm back in newcastle already. back for good. no more weekend travels, no more 2 separate rooms. i'm back in newcastle. in my beloved room, with my beloved housemates. dah seminggu lebih dah, i didnt have time to update this blog, more towards malas than anything else hehe.

anyway, i'm in robinson library now. bloody 4 hours doing ethics essays. kepala wa sudah bengong. i never like ethics. not an ethical person anyway. got this 2500 words essay to finish by next friday. waaaa! i dont normally mind writing essays, providing they are interesting, like topics concerning MRI ka, old people ka, but ethics? someone please help me... i spent the last few days trying to do it, but i think i'm going no where. hopeless. am starting to think my ethics case is too week, but it's too late to change now. got 9 days to finish it all together, and that includes the editing, which always took me ages, so i think i have to stick to my case. my brain already tepu now after 4 hours in the library, i can only leave in about an hour cos dah janji with ellina to go home together. my brain cannot take any more ethics at the moment, so what else to do? updating my blog la heheh..

just worth mentioning here that i really enjoyed my time in whitehaven, especially. that surprises me, in a good way. there were 12 of us, and we bonded quite well as a group. the hospital is small, but adequate, and the hostel is not bad either. if i were to apply for an HO job, i wouldnt mind applying there. which leads me to my next topic: i didnt apply. meaning that i'm going straight home next summer. happy? of course i'm happy. but i cant be super happy. still got my exams before that (shudders...). so why was i not applying? i'll tell you in my next entry, when i'm ready, cos right now i'm shitting my pants thinking of the finals..lets write something happy..

it's 11 days to go to barcelona! (it works!) weeee.. me going there soon :) but sadly, 2 of the gang cannot make it due to work commitment.. you let medicine eats you hah! but i'm still going with my most favouritest person in the world (you know who you are heh), hopefully she got her cuti tomoro. we will be there for 4 days, hopefully it's warmer there and have lots of sales! hehe i've been saving for a few months, both for barcelona and this year's boxing day sale, so hopefully i dont overspend in barcelona (yeah right..) so that i still have some spare cash for boxing day sale hehe.

a few good news and bad news from home. my sis-in-law is pregnant! everyone is so happy. my parents have been waiting for a grandchild for like, 5 years, i think, and now they're going to have it next mid july, hopefully. and the bad news is that week will also be my graduation week, so my parents couldnt come. which one would you prefer to be? in home waiting for the arrival of your first long-awaited cucu, or to fly 12 hours non-stop to attend the graduation of your daughter who has been stuck in her education for the last 7 years? i choose the former, to be honest. i wouldnt mind at all. i am indeed the black sheep of the family, and i'm not proud with that.

another good news from home is that my sister is getting engaged this saturday! I AM VERY HAPPY! and a little bit sad at the same time. i'm happy because she is my one and only sister and she has been a very good sister to me and i'm happy for her to found her happiness and someone to take care of her. and i'm sad cos i will not be there, as she has always be there for me.

i know not all people can understand it, but family has always been a sensitive issue to me. i HATE it when there are events at home which i cannot join, well i have been away for 7 years, and i miss lots and lots of things. from everyone's birthdays, and holidays, and moving to new house, and jiman's engagement, to iwan taking upsr, pmr and spm and receiving all the results without me being there, to mama's operation, and abah's super bloody stupid episodes, and now kak lysa's engagement? i'm almost at the end of my patience nowadays. i used to be sad, but now i am angry. for not being there. now all i can do is hoping for me to be able to attend my sister's wedding. it's one of my aim in life (yes, i do have many 'aims in life', nadine) is to be her bridesmaid, ie pengapit la. i have only one sister in this world and i want to be there on her happiest day.

enough already. you wouldnt understand.

what else to write? i'm in wansbeck hosp nowadays, which is about 40 minutes drive from newcastle. i'm getting a lift from friends living nearby, so that is good. another 1 week and a half before christmas hols. i got 3 weeks break, which i think is good. give me time to rest before hitting the accelerator again after new year. this last few days will be spent in finishing my ethics essay. this is good as i can be home more often thus i can call home (malaysia) more often (sory ct bill byk but i always pay my bill altho sometimes terlambat sket ye hihi). everyone's at home is busy preparing for kak lysa's engagement ceremony this saturday, so of course i would like to menyibuk! i wouldnt want to miss it. i call home, like, everyday, demanding to know the details of the preparation.

oklah, it's time to continue my essay again. i'll try to write more often, but sometimes i just dont feel like to write. good day everyone.