Go and eat nasi lemak

2/16/2004 11:10:00 PM 0 Comments »
yup, today i cook nasi lemak. ate a lot. like it's something new...ho ho ho

went to uni kejap tadi. met this one malaysian guy in front of the union. not that close with him, but he's frenly, so i dont mind having a chat kejap with him. borak nyer borak, he said he didnt want to go back to malaysia after graduate because he didnt have anyone back home. huh? being alone in this foreign country, and alone as well back home? of course la you cant say him being alone becos he got frens and keluarga angkat, but having no blood-related person in this whole world? oh man.

but hei, if you dont have anyone to concern to and nobody to be concerned of, that's brilliant, isnt it? you dont have to consider your parents feeling, no need to compare your exam results with the other siblings/cousins etc, all you have to consider is yourself! you can be what you want, can do what you want. no burden, no responsibility, except for yourself. you just need to take good care of yourself, no string attached. live your life as you wish, go to the end of the world if you like, without needing to have regular visit to somewhere, someone. you work as you like, spend as you like, marry someone you like without needing an approval, no majlis merisik lah, majlis tunang lah, malam berinai lah, pelamin lah, hantaran lah blah blah blah and yup, the crowd. why not just go to masjid, kadi, akad, saksi, mas kawin, tada, husband and wife. 'no, no, you need to consider your parents feeling'. pastu, cucu lah, cicit lah, whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging whinging.....

my point is, to have a zero expectation, zero responsibility life, it's priceless.

but that's impossible. not entirely imposible lah, of course, there are ppl out there who have or choose to have that kind of life. for what reason, i dont know, but i've listed mine. i know some ppl may not agree with me, fine, your life, my life. i, too, am not sure to choose that kind of life, if i were given the chance to choose. nobody related to you in this world? isnt it weird? no parents, no siblings, and most importantly, no place to go back to? i know my mum kuat bebel, but she did lots of other things for me as well. when i was down, she told me about her new handbag worth RM 2400 (dont ask me). weird isnt it? a handbag can cheer someone up other that the owner? becos she knows me for sooooo damn long, and the fact that i've shared half of my gene with her (hence the handbags/shoes/shopping addiction). my parents and family build a mountain of priceless memories for me, and most importantly, they make me the person i am today (not the sperm and egg thingy huh, but that's true as well hmm..). build me, me. i know i'm not the best person in the world, but to be able to breath and smile today, is such an achievement (what am i saying?). i hate all the bebel, advices, 'reminders' but (oh i hate to admit this) they actually help me to get thru this life. and i'm complaining/whinging all day...la la la not grateful la la la

life is like nasi lemak, some taste good, some not, some like it pedas, some not, some got allergic to nuts, some just cant eat it though they like it cos of takut gemuk. nasi lemak doesnt always taste good (life is not always a bed of roses), some like it pedas, some not (variety of human's destiny), some got allergic to nuts (you cant have everything in life), some cant eat it though they like it becos of takut gemuk (well, you cant just consider yourself when making a decision, ie need to consider other ppl's view and opinion as well). hihihi amacam? ratu merepek no 1 dunia. nite everyone >o<

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