My World

sejuknyer hari ni. yet still no snow!! last nite was -4,-5 degrees, then tonite is -6 degrees! sejuk gile..grrr..snow...where are thou... nak main2 snow b4 sekolah stat next week...

tgh dgr lagu Misha Omar 'Bunga-bunga Cinta'. leh tahan. in fact, i like it. jarang suke lagu melayu. vokal bagus. tapi lirik die..sort of sad story lah. ingat nak letak liric die kat this blog, but then dont think it's suitable, tak de kaitan pun, so change my mind.

nak cat bilik. but need to ask landlard dulu. did i mention to you guys that my wall's colour is light green, and the carpet is red? sakit mata. but still bley lagi, as long as it's not blue! really hate blue. then ari tu beli dover cover kaler light turqoise, ingat nak padan ngn wall yg kaler ijau. suke tak suke, bley gak la. then elina decided tuk cat bilik die, so join je la. nak cat off-white. jasmine white, to be precised. hmm..sempat siap tak b4 sekolah stat next week? hmm...

rambut dah panjang. in fact, tak pernah panjang cam ni. dulu kecik2 always rambut pendek. sekarang dah panjang..rimas. cucuk2 leher + belakang. i think ade ruam kat situ aa cos tak biase rambut lebih bahu. pastu tak pakai cekak. sakit kepala. takleh ikat rambut sgt sbb pening kepala gaks. maybe sbb mmg selalu berambut pendek..rimas rimas. syampoo + conditioner pun kene spesel. mahal huh. cepat abis plak tu. ceh. but at the same time, teringin sangat nak rambut panjang. dari dulu lagi teringin sgt rambut panjang. bukan senang nak tunggu panjang, lebih2 lagi since aku jenis yg tak sabo. tapi huda kate rambut aku lawa (hehe angkat bakul sesekali hihi) skrg kat uk ok kot rambut panjang.sejuk + potong rambut mahal. tapi kat mesia..most definitely akan potong rambut..tapi sayang rambut...

ni dah stat merapu. ntah ape ape ntah tulih psl rambut.

alo

malasnye nak tulih. tapi tulisla sket2.
yesterday pie ikea ngn ellina and kak syikin. i bought 3 cactus and 2 lucky bamboos! just felt like i want to give another lives another chance. used to own a cactus back in kmys, sihat tul, ask my chaletmates dulu kat kmys. then bile nak fly pie uk, left it to my mum, pastu mati. sedey. then used to own a goldfish for 2 years, sihat tul, ask my flatmates, pastu bile summer 2002, balik mesia sat then tinggalkan kat a****, terus mati. sedey. pastu rase mcm dah tak sampai hati nak bela ape2. sedey sbb aku betul2 syg goldfish tu, + my old cactus. the secret is to talk to them every now and them. feel as if they're there with you. then betul2 rase sedey bile depa mati. ade grief period gak la hihi. anyway, new cactuses, new names la, as usual. 3 cactuses, i named Genso Sanjo, Cho Hakkai and Sha Godjo. and the lucky bamboos tu Son Goku. okey la. welkam to my life, dear plants.

quite hepi actually. and proud as well. my youngest brother got a good result for his pmr. everybody was very very surprised, as he's the youngest, suke main, with a past upsr result yg teruk gak la. the first thing that he said to me when i called him last nite was "Na, Iwan kantoi aa.." i was like. "huh? hmm" then he said "sebab iwan nangis depan semue org". kah kah kah. my mum cried as well. then i called my sis and my other bro. borak2 panjang, telling each other how surprised and unexpected the news is. and Iwan now cant decide what presents does he want!! such a spoil boy, but he's well deserved all the presents (mintak aku MD player!!? botak aku) pandai betul die. mintak my mum hadiah lain, my dad hadiah lain, mintak my sis hadiah lain etc etc. siap tanye aku lagi ape bende yg die leh mintak. ceh...buat aku jeles je. hihi. but i' hepi and proud for him. wish i were there at this moment. nak tgk Iwan sengeh sampai telinga!

alo alo alo

sory lame tak tulih anything kat this blog. quite occupied, i might say. went to london last week to huda's. enjoyed my time there for a week, then went back to newcastle to receive some guests from belfast. then azli went on staying with me for a week b4 returning to belfast this morning. bless her. bless all my frens who made my life brighter.

i used to hate Friends (i mean, the comedy series). i also used to hate movies/series which based on frenship. for me, the only thing/person that you can really rely on is your family. cause they're your blood. you've known them all your life. although i am aware that family can also betray each other, but my family is everything to me. my family is my world. and my world is my family. my small family: mum, dad, kak lysa, jiman and iwan. we used to moved around soo many times and we stick to each other through thick and thin. i can trust a fren, but not as much as i trust my family. i can love and care for a fren, but it's nothing much compared to the love for my family. a few years ago, a 'fren' used to tell me that she will do anything for her frens. like if her frens terjun lombong, she will follow them, if it's required for her to save her beloved frens. hmm...not me huh. dont think i'll do that. i will help others if it doesnt burden me. a fren used to tell me i'm selfish. hm..true in some way, harsh though. well that's me, i guess. blame it to my upbringing, blame it to the dark times at mrsm taiping. blame it to a fren's betrayal, blame it to a fren's hypocracy. life is not easy, and i have to stand on my own feet to survive. i can never trust, love a fren as much as i know it should be.

and here i am. in a faraway place on my own. the only person, my family, whom i trust and love is too distant. ppl used to tell me i'm a strong, individual and independent type of person. they told other ppl that if i were to be left alone in a remote place, i can and will survive. and here i am. precisely. except that i'm not that strong, individual maybe, and still trying, but failing, to be independent. and without the only support that i trust, cherish most, i'm useless. defenceless. loss.

this year is a bad one for me. 2003. unlucky huh. bad, maybe worst year for me. too much dissappointment, frustation, heartaches. didnt even expect to see 2004. but here i am. at the near end of 2003. i survived. how? why? with my frens' support, love and trust. dont think i can survive without them. my family is still there for me, and will always be there for me, but now i can have more. i have my frens now.

fren, thanks for a wonderful time at london. you are yourself, which i like best about you. fren, thanks for flying from belfast and stay with me at newcastle. a week with you meant a lot for me, believe me. and a bunch of frens at newcastle, thanks. special thanks to my comel housemate. you helped me more than you realised (esp today! hehe). not forget my special fren kat machang, kelate. you brighten my life, everyday.

to all my frens out there, million thanks.

alo

penat sih. 6 hours++ dlm bus from london to newcastle. last minute decision tuk pegie london last week, tak de tiket train yg berpatutan. so naik aa bus. dont mind actually..maybe dah get used to long hour journey since last sem selalu sgt pie coventry. naik train pun 5hours ++. since azali kat mesia, langsung tak kuar newcastle. need some time to have the courage to travel and realise azali wont be there at the end of the journey. kali ni pun, if it wasnt for huda, dont think i want to go anywhere outside newcastle. but what a nice trip at london! a great person she is. i was quite sad to say goodbye to her just now. the first days were quite...i might say...distance to each other. time goes by, and both of us have changed to quite a different person. then bile jumpe balik...quite distance/awkward huh. but the final days were the best. ever. thanks huda. you're the best.

sampai newcastle je...hujan. penat + bosan. then balik umah. nasib ade ellina. woo hoo! ade geng huh. mmg dah janji nak tgk pop idol final sesame. but this year's popidol is SOOO dull. all the good ones semue dah kuar. ntah ape2 ntah. dont want to talk much about the winner..dont like her, dont want to like her, will not like her. then supper with ellina. dua2 lapa gile! should see how both of us ate. heheh. then i ran with all my might to my room to... call azali! miss this siamang like hell! so relieved and happy to hear his voice, and all of his attention and care...heheh..cair......b4 his mum called him to do something, and he had to leave me..huhuhu. tappe makcik..i'll have your son sooner or later huh...jahat sungguh aku nih!!

ngntuk seh. nak tido. esok some frens from belfast will come to newcastle. kene bawak jln2 newcastle. dont mind though since i dont have anything else to do pun. but the weather forecast for tomoro is really bad, man. strong wind, temperature can be -1, with the possibility of snowing. 'nice day to introduce newcastle huh'. nite nite

ari ni tak kuar mane2. last night mimpi azali. ye la, since kat london, cant call him that often. huhuhu mish him. in that dream i saw his face was sad. huhuhu aku lagi sedey. that's why today i'd decided to stay in huda's room the whole day. cant wait to go back to newcastle tomoro. dont get me wrong, i enjoy my time here with huda kat london, there are lots of things we'd catched up. miss london gak, it's been more than a year since i truly enjoy london. last year, i mean sept 2002-03 i've been to coventry tooo often. been away from london and huda. but now i've been in london for a week and i guess that's more than enuff. i'm going back to newcastle tomoro, have my sweet room, with my sweet bed, miss ismail (my teddy huh) and miss ellina + other housemates as well. most importantly..i miss talking to azali. azali, sory for being away, i guess i need my break from newcastle, but not from you. miss you so much, and i promise to be with you (via phone laaa) when i be in newcastle tomoro!

adoi..so damn tired..damn tired. 2 whole days jln. smlm dah cover abis regent st + covent garden + london millenium bridge etc etc. then today huda forced me (yup..she forced me hehehe) to go to her lectures at her main campus kat whitechapel. then..as usual..i got bored at the first lecture (surprise surprise). during lunch time we went to a nearby market. by the way, whitechapel tu kawasan bangladesh, british-borned indian etc. a bit dodgy aa. but the market..wah..i was quite surprised. lots of kedai baju2 indian, punjabi, sari. really really nice embroideries, all the labuci. some of the clothes are quite overcrowded i admit, but there are some simple, very nice ones. wah..i really like the material and the price is not so expensive. i plan to go there again in the future to buy my wedding material. hehe..i plan to buy the sari and can use the kain to make kebaya. really really nice. oh my wedding...

then decided to miss the afternoon lectures (surprise surprise) and guess what? went to cinema to watch Lord of The Ring The Return of The King instead!! WAHH..THIS MOVIE GOT MY BEST VOTE!! THE BEST MOVIE EVER!! for a non LOTR fan (i'm Harry Potter's, man) it's hard for me to give this movie any credit. but this movie's really good! say no more, whoever read this, go run to your nearest cinema and watch this movie! go, run! run! run!

a relaxing...(lazying actually) day. really dont feel like want to come out from the room. stayed all day in huda's room. maybe because yesterday was quite a tiring one. so today i decided to stay myself in the room, watch a few dvds and cds, sleep etc. okeylah..a nice change.

nothing much. but i start to miss mng and zara and oxford street etc etc. might go tomoro hehehe.

london. too much past memories. some good, and some bad. me kinda ppl who dont like their past. past = painful. me threw away past pictures. me hate taking any picture..cause it will remain me of the past, when i see it again it in the future...

but mng will always give smile on my face!! elina..jgn jeles! best gile. *hint hint..handbag baru hihi. spent hours kat oxford st. woo hoo! will go there again b4 balik newcastle this saturday.

another good news! azli will be spending her winter break with me kat newcastle! best best! for a week. azli, or azlizawati, is one of my good fren mase kt kmys. really really good person. good fren is not the same as best fren huh (that's you huda! hihi). but sometimes both of them exist in the same person (that's you ellina! hihi) enuff enuff

well, quite happy kat london. huda belanja kuey teow goreng! woohoo! had a nice and long walk this afternoon. did lots and lots of thinking hoho as usual. looking forward gaks to see azli this sunday. yee haa! hope life can be as good as this more often.

i'm going to london!!
i'm going to london!!
i'm going to london!!

leh jumpe huda, after more than a year tak jumpe die. nearly 2 years kot. huda is my best friend, and she will always be. we were very close back then, but last year there were lots of things in our plates, meaning we were quite bz and occupied with our lives. huda met a nice guy and got serious and due to get married in less than 2 weeks time! i also met a nice guy (hihi) and was also quite bz sorting my studies. then i met some good frens kat newcastle (you know who you are heheh), so got my life occupied. in other way, i was kinda...forgot about my best fren kat london. sory to say that. but i still remember our memories, esp mase 1st year, our trip to paris, how she was always there for me during my difficult times...well...i never forget about you huda. i remember everytime i finish talking to her, i always have this good feeling, satisfy with the conversation that we've had. even azali cant do that. i owe you so much, and now i dont want to keep you just for myself. you're a lively person, and you deserve to do much2 more that just be with me (sound dodgy la plak...never mind hheheh). i was so naive, selfish and a loner back then. time, ppl and everything around me have changed me, and i hope i am a better person now.

huda, thank you for being who you are, who always be there for me. i am really looking forward to see you tomoro, and may our frenship remains fresh and strong.

hehehhee

Dear frenz,

I'm fine. i know i will be fine.
Million thanks to Ellina, you help me to get through this. you'll always have a special place in my heart (in a good +innocent way lah).
although i'm still full of uncertainty, i'll be fine. there're full of cloudiness, hazziness, but i know it will be clearer. there will have some good things out of this one. if i look really hard, i know i'll find more.

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
’cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

tak leh tidoooooooooooooooooo

nak buat ape yer? dah kencing 3 kali. on-off tv dah 3 kali kot. skrg kul 3 am something. tak leh tido tak leh tido. want to know why?? sebabnye...sebabnye...tomoro dpt result exam...mmg la tak leh tido langsung...

but what to do what to do? tak de topic menarik pun yg leh ditulih. satu bende je kat otak aku skrg...exam result...and believe me, you dont want to know about that...

oklah...seperti biase...cilok idea dr blog org lain..heheh. blog org lain susah noo nak update, so aku cilok aa dr blog wirda..

kat kmys. okla..better than mase kat tepen. kekwn pun okla. takde perasaan sebenonye bile masuk kmys, sbb dah sebulan sebelum tu duk kat ukm wat matriks. donola sbb ape aku pie kmys. anyway..duk aa ngn liza, wirda dan laila, + mus yg jadi our 5th member unofficially..

liza ajar aku being individual. she likes to keep things to herself. respect her for that. being independent (in my point of view la). antara org 1st yg kenalkan aku kat kompter..sejak kenal makcik ni la aku jadi minat kompter and admire pd org yg tere kompter (azali..you should thank her hihi).memori yg funny..die pie suh aku rakamkan suara kat kompter die ie suh aku ckp waktu semayang dah masuk bla bla bla. aku yg innocent ni pun ikutla. then, 5 times a day, kompter die akan kuarkan suara rakaman aku tu la, bagitau satu chalet waktu semayang dah masuk. mase tu 1st time aku tau yg loghat jawa aku ni tebal rupenye...malu!

laila. makcik ni lawa. aku mmg rase die lawa. kulit putih, licin tul. semue bende die pakai johnson2. rambut die best. panjang, halus, lurus. dulu mase kat tepen duk betul2 depan bilik aku. segan sket ngn die...cause she reminds me of the bad memories kat tepen...cant write much about her..never got that close

wirda. geng gak la. aku takut sebenonye kat makcik ni. muke grumpy jer selalu. dah la nama same..takut gak die bantai aku satu hari. hei, this girl dont need a reason to bantai org tau..that's what i think la hehe. jadi rapat sbb makcik ni makan sarapan je mase kat kmys. aku plak makan every time ade makanan kat dining hall. girls yg lain bangun lambat sket so tak pie serapan. so aku jadi baik gak la ngn wirda ni. mule2 tu semue org pelik..camne aku yg senyap (+baik+sopan hehehe) leh baik ngn wirda yg semue kate ganeh+brutal etc etc. tapi best gak. org takut gak la ngn aku sbb aku kwn ngn gengster..got my point? heheh. wirda ajar aku jadi...cool..that's the right word. suh aku tgk Wild Thing though aku cabut half way. sronok sronok. malam2 pie cafe (is it cafe?) kat kmys tuk beli air. dpt tgk mamat2 hensem sekali heheh..wirda suke hindustan..pasang almost every night sampai aku leh hafal semue lagu kuch kuch hota hei (tak tipu!)

last sekali mus. die style-o tahap dewa nyer. kire sifu style aku ler...unofficially. tak rapat sgt mase kat kmys. tgk2 jadi sedara aku! ceh ceh...ngn cousin aku gak die kawin. skrg dah 4 months pregnant. org 1st yg ajar aku psl style..toche toche

adoi dah panjang ni. sebenornye byk lagi nak tulih. ye la..2 years memories kan. aku belaja byk mende dr diaorg, esp psl relationship (ingat tak dulu aku kate aku wat research?) dulu aku sorang single, so depa semue cite aa sket2. so though aku tak couple, tapi view aku luas aa gak. tq guys..for being part of my life. tq gak cause sket sebyk you made me the person i am today...heheh..elly..jadi..jiwang..again!!

alo again

called my mum and my sis this morning. got some bad news. my mum dreamt something sad and bad about my sis. jawa ppl believe in dreams. dont want to write about the actual dream, but it's clearly a bad sign. sigh. my elder sister is single and living alone in kl. and she has an awkward working hour. always finish at 2-3 in the morning. dono la. she works for bbmb but i always thought they have a fixed 9-5 schedule. dono la. and my sis works really hard. and i think she has depression. sian die. all i can do is to call her every now and then to say hi and make sure she's fine.

and my dad. more or less confirms he's moving to...guess it again..sudan. some of my frens in newcastle have already known about this, but i dont think it's true until i called my mum this morning. it doesnt make sense. my parents are quite an old couple. not that old, 50 and 48, yet i think they should remain with their close ones back in malaysia. and my dad already earn enuff for the family. more than enuff. we never want more than enuff. we always like simple life. ape lagi? we the children dont want their money, harta etc. but i know my dad. he likes thrill, adventorous thing. the more the better. he likes to be ongoing. but what i dont like is he would drag my mum with him. and i know my mum. she loves my dad more than everything. they stick with each other, though thick and thin. and i'm pretty sure she will follow my dad to sudan. though she doesnt like sudan (who does?) sigh. i dont like my family to be separated. and my youngest bro..dont know where will he go. boarding school? i know he's a mum's son. anak mak. dont like boarding school a bit. and my sis. being single, i think she will need my family support more than ever. sedey sedey. i always remember my childhood times. we were not rich, but we have each other. we always move around, from one place to another, locally, abroad, but we always together. sob sob. miss those times. that's why i know i'm and will always be a family person. always be. i'll choose family than money, fame, power, ambition or anything else. that's why i keep on dragging, complaining about living oversea. it might be ok, small thing for some ppl. not for me. i made a mistake. by going away.

now we are to be separated. if it's up to me, i wouldn't go. but it's not up to me. sigh

alo

tetibe cuak. psl this coming exam results. biasenye lepas exam akan free, rase relieved. but not this time. still got the thrill, anxiety.

sejuk sgt ari ni. think it's -2 or -3 outside since this morning. guess winter comes early and colder..

tak eventful sgt this past 2,3 days. didnt do anything. enjoy my new room arrangement, enjoy my bed + tv (as usual lah). malassss sgt nak msk...so not me. cause i always like to cook. dono dono

cant think of anything else to write. maybe i'll again later.

tgh dgr album Will Young yg baru. bessttt nyer....wah...no 1 single, no 1 album at the moment..wah...muarhahaha..padan muke gareth gates only managed to get 4th place..muarhahah..gelak jahat gile..

anyway, rearrange my room today. hate my last arrangement. that was only for the exams. mess everywhere. now's better. got a bigger empty space, so that me and my housemates can eat on the floor instead of on the bed. took me the whole nite yesterday thinking about the new + suitable rearrangement plan. too many things to consider. the heater needs to be free and away from anything, so that the heat can be redistribute throughout the room. the tv MUST be directly at the foot of the bed, cause i eat, drink and live with my beloved tv, 24-7. the study table must be near the book shelf, senang nak amik buku. then there's a laptop, need to be near the printer. then kene consider wiring and power point. need to have a free space as well to semayang, mkn etc. lots and lots things to be considered. nasib baik akhirnye....dpt gak pk kan someting la MUARHAHAH. the whole process took me 5 hours kot. berat woo. yahoo..bilik besh skrg hehe.

one of my favourite song from will young:

LOVE IS A MATTER OF DIFFERENCE

Love is a matter of difference
Between you and me
Love is a matter of distance
That you are too far away

Love is a matter of growing
And knowing true feelings
Love is a matter of showing
That you are too far away

When my heart is open
My mind is opening to find
I cant let you stay
The love is a matter of difference
That you are too far away

Love is a matter of input
Outlook, deep inside
Love is to know you're on my side
That you are too far away

adoi...aku dah jadi jiwang. soo NOT me.. tapi nak buat camne. blame it on azali...

FOOHHH...LEGA. really really relieved. i know the result hasnt come out yet, and i dont deserved to celebrate too much. but still think i deserve to have a break.

just finished my OSCE paper this morning, 11pm to be precised. after a terrible/horrible nite. after worst days ever. suddenly i went panic. i mean, REALLY PANIC + GELABAH + CUAK + SUICIDAL, semue ade. was actually surprised last monday and tuesday when i did my first 2 papers. calm. ready. good confident, but not over. the pace was just nice. tranquility. then came wednesday and thursday b4 the OSCE paper on friday.

it was really really bad. the nite b4 the OSCE. honestly if i havent thought of Allah, i would have commit suicide. dead serius. i dont care ANYTHING at that moment. not my mum, family, even azali come across my mind. i was really really down. drop minus confident. dont think i can carry on this life. life feels useless. empty. hole. dont care. dont want to care. it was too much for me to handle. too many heartache. i dont feel sad. just useless. useless. useless. too many questions but with too little answer

then azali called. i was just burst out crying when i heard his voice. i was totally forgotten about him. i was damn misrable. he clarified me on the things that make me feel like this. I WAS SCARED. scared for the OSCE. scared for failing this paper. scared of the feeling after the exams, esp OSCE. my worst paper. i used to have nightmares for months for my last OSCE. it was damn horrible. and i was also scared of everything. scared to continue this life. life's too complicated. and misrable. dont think i want it anymore. then azali asked me to write on a piece of paper, everything that i have in my mind. quite silly, but i did it. 4 pages long. full of questions. then i throwed it away. i felt a bit relieved, but also sad. sad because the writing on those papers was mine. those thought was mine. and it is mine. will always be mine.

i dont want to be in that situation again. but somehow i know i will. cause it used to happen to me before. it was bad. the previous scar remains fresh. and now there is another. so i think i will have another one..

dont know when will it happen. too scared. i dont want it. but it keep coming back. i know i wont do anything silly, but sooner or later i know i will. scared of losing my mind, again, but more scared if i lose my body and soul. you never know when it will happen, you never know when will you lose your mind, and now you never know when will you start doing something. anything. scared of losing control. of yourself. damn i'm crying rite now. for the sadness of my life. pitied myself. a loser. freak

may Allah give me enough strengh. to carry on this life.
be strong and stable.
amin

alo alo alo

just finished 2nd paper. the final paper, the scariest and nastiest paper, is on this friday. may Allah has mercy on me...huhuhu..
the last 2 papers? ntah..dono. me dont like to predict/comment on past exams. emotionless. because it used to happen to me. i cant predict the result.

my emotion dah stable sket kot this week. pms, exam fever, anxiety, plus the cold and cruel weather predispose my mood (sape tak?). so i list down a few things that happen last + this week in my life:

+ve events:
1. my mum asked me to used her money to buy my new coat. duit raya = hadiah raya = coat idaman hati...mueheeheh. + she sent me, not one, but 2 new shirt/tops. both have very nice colours, definitely my taste/style. tq tq bondaku..hehehhe
2. will young 5th single got no1 place in the chart, after a confused cd distribution, somewhere, sometime this week. oh will young... you have my full support!
3. raya. sape tak suke? though i was in the middle of my revision when syawal arrived, but hey, raya IS raya. and this year's raya is the best raya so far. had kak maz's raya dishes...besh besh. semlm baru die buat biskut london almond. heaven!
4. managed to pay all my bills in advance, be more organized in my spending, and...i left with very fewww pocket money! what to do what to do.. but still hepi
5. more relax and organised in my revision. lebih senang nak masuk..alhamdullillah. maybe sbb dpt 2 weeks study leave..dpt rehat lebih huh
6. received result + feedback for my medical physics literature review. hepi hepi. one of the examiner really really like my paper and he gave me merit, but the other examiner down graded it a little. never mind. i am more more that happy if somebody actually like my paper. it was the first paper which i really enjoyed reading, writing etc. oh meds physics..here i come!

-ve events:
1. exams. who like exams???
2. missed a few cite in the tv...huhu...sbb study aa nyer psl.. need to sacrifice something, if you want to gain something
3.weather sejuk sgt!! plus the moodiness + greyish cloudiness + raining, wet everywhere. guess winter come early this year.
4. got a cold + running nose, despite having had flu jab last sept/oct. + a few headaches, or i might say, some throbbing discomfort on me right frontal, which radiates to the right eye...wuuu
5. bengang sgt2 last weekend. i dont like being angry. rase cruel, jahat sgt. sory to that person, dont you ever buat aku marah lagi..cause no one will want to see me being angry. not a nice view, not a nice feeling.

hm..i guess that's all that i can think of right now...
ngantuk weh...otakku sakit...got a few days more b4 'the' last paper.