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dah lame tak update. been a bit bz myself. finished psychiatry, and am doing chronic illness, disability and rehabilitation since last week. bosan nk mati BOSAN NAK MATI. dah la base kat wansbeck hosp, it's so far away i hate it so much. takes 1 hour to be there by bus, dont like the hosp, dont like the docs there, really hate the rotation. the course is sooo mad bored

......................................whatever

anyway, few things to update:

i'm going home this saturday (!!) yup, home HOME. about 3 weeks ago i happened to know that my easter break is 3 weeks instead of 2, got cair with mr fiance who begged me to go home, + i got some extra saving money from my part-time paid work, so i decided then and then that i wanted to go home for easter. this is the 1st time having paid the flight ticket myself, and it felt good. i know i can spend my earning on anything, some prefer to spend it on clothes, or shoes, or for european holidays, or even save it, but i know i will be a much happier person to spend it on a flight ticket back home :)))

i told my mum the night after i bought my tickets that i am due to arrive at klia on sunday afternoon. i purposedly choose a weekend flight so that i can see my family on the weekend when everyone is free. she said "oh, dont you know that all of us are going to pulau tioman that weekend? we are going there on saturday and come back to kuantan on monday afternoon" WHAT? everyone knew that i'll be home that weekend but they choose to go on a vacation instead? marah gile. after all my effort to go home to be with them and this is how they treat me? i know azali will be there to sambut me at the airport, but that is not the same. me being left behind? bengang bengang. my mum apologised prefusedly, saying that it was all my dad's plan and she only knew it that morning. xyzf#$gtfd%jbjabifuckygthbs%

you know what i did? since everyone will be senang lenang goyang kaki at pulau tioman sane on sunday while me just arrive from a 15hours flight, i decided to treat myself and get even. i booked a night at Mandarin Oriental hotel, the one near klcc that cost about RM500 a night. did i mention that i'm gonna use my dad's credit card? oh yes i will. it is the only way to balas dendam + redakan hati yg marah ini MUAHAHAHAHHA

so skrg hati sudah sejuk hehehe. sbb dah book hotel yg best muahaha. lagipun the hotel is strategically located, near to lrt putra where i can go to kl central and take the klia express for a kuantan flight on monday afternoon. (sebenarnye sbb dekat ngn klcc, leh shopping MUAHAHAH + 5star hotel MUAHAHAHHA). weh, tu dah kira bagus, i thought of taking a flight to bangkok tau on the day i arrived at klia sbb bengang sgt. nasib baik mr fiance berjaya pujuk.

oklah. enuff being cruel. you cant believe how anxious i was for these past few days, i just cant contain my anxiety of going home. it normally takes me several weeks or even months to set my mind on something like this. thus i dont usually make spontaneous decision. i usually can cope with sudden changes, but it is my mind that takes time to adapt.

planned to pack my stuff tonight, just realised most of it is not my stuff. it's theirs ie those at home. i think i deserve the mandarin oriental room, a day of shopping at klcc and a late night movie at tgv klcc with mr fiance. dont you think so?

plan to do while in malaysia:

1. meet up a few friends; wirda, atik, mus, liza, nina alwi etc..dono sempat ke tak hmm. dono they want to see me or not hmm

2. beg my dad (cium kaki die if perlu) to get me an F1 ticket. two actually, for mr fiance as well. already got a plan in my mind to text him tomoro 'alo abah. leh dptkan tak ticket F1, ples ples, for anakmu yang ditinggalkan/dilupakan mase pie pulau tioman huhuhu'. hmm agaknye jadik tak? it all depends on his mood. i know he can get good tickets but he is not the type of person to mintak those sort of things hmm...ples ples hope abah is in a good mood (well..better ask now b4 he sees his credit card bill for an unknown RM500 hotel bill ahaks)

3. go to kelantan. to be precised, machang. to be more precised, to meet mr fiance's big family. i've met his parents during our engagement day, but going to his house and meet the whole family, that another major thing to do. gile cuak. well, a fiancee has to do what a fiancee has to do. i hope it's a day trip huhuhu

4. go shopping!! mr fiance promised to pay all my living expenses while me at home, well, i am going home and use my savings for a 500quids flight ticket to see him, so no guilt there for using his money hahaha

5. everyone now has an mp3 player, so i think i'm gonna looked for it in malaysia since elina said it is cheaper there. i dont promise to get one, just look and see hehe. ipod mini is such a nice little cute thing. tak dpt tu, dpt ipod shuffle pun jadik la. cuci mata je...

6. what else? EAT!! eat as much udang as i can, sampai bengkak2 muka like last year hahaha dont care, me like udang very much

7. get a dermalogica facial set. me like dermalogica soo much. it really suits my skin. it's better than lancome.

8. of course, spend time with mr fiance. he's actually one of the main reason i'm going back. + he promised an MNG bag hehehe

9. dono jadik ke tak, but last week i told mama i always want to go to trengganu for a weekend break, they always go there, at least once in a few months, but i never actually stay in a hotel in trengganu. they always go to this place, something bayu beach resort, me asyik jeles je sbb asyik kene tinggal. so mum promised me to go there sometime during my 3-week stay. with all the above plans, i'm not sure whether i have time. only 3 weeks hols ie 2 weekends, 1 weekend is for F1, the 2nd weekend is for machang trip. we'll see....

cepat aa abis this week...gagagaga

psyhiatry is damn exhausting. the history taking alone took 1 and a half hour. detail man..detail..A to Z if not Z to A. anyway, thank god it's all over now, i had the oral assessment on thursday, cuak gile cuak. alhamdullillah, it went well and i pass with a rather good marks (*pat myself at the back hihi). so i'm gonna start CIDER soon (chronic illness, disability and rehabilitation) tomoro for 8 weeks. and 1 or 2 weeks will be on my least favourite medical subject in the whole world - orthopaedics. good luck elly, you need that.

what a weird sunday. woke up very, very late this morning, or i might say, afternoon. it's weird becos i'm not in my malas mood now. but just that i dont have anything to do. no plan whatsoever. i dont want to go out as i want to save some money for 'the easter project'. and sunday tv are all rubbish. and i dont have the mood to socialise either. there is nothing to read (aa tipu aa tu) cos am going to start a new rotation soon. i want to mandi but it's freezing mad cold so better wait till the heater's on at 5ish.

takde idea nk tulis ape lagi. blank blank. i cant wait for 'the easter project', dont want to jinx it by writing it here. maybe when it's confirmed. cant wait!

ok, think i should mandi now. lantak aa sejuk, mandi gune air panas kan, so hope it will panaskan toilet lol. and guess what, think i want to cook something sweet after that..but not sure what lol

been a bit bz since my last entry.

you know i hate psychiatry. i've been tangguh2 buat my cases since last week, tho the deadline was last friday, but the consultant said that we can hand them in on monday morning. and i wasnt even half way with my cases on weds night. couldnt be bothered at all. met an anxious schizophrenic old lady on thurs morning, and i presented my case quite well to the old age psychiatrist that resulted me a compliment later that day. i was very motivated after that and ended up doing my cases as soon as i reached home at 5 and finished all 3 of them by midnight. felt rather good for myself, and now i can have a relaxing weekend.

went to work as usual on saturday. got this voucher from specsaver and i thought it would be nice to get coloured contact lenses after work, but then all the opticians there were all booked up till next week, and i know i will have got over my excitement for lenses at the weekend, so i changed my mind. i am too used wearing glasses now so why bother change. i can always get contact lenses later. then i went to do a bit of window shopping, just to buy me some time for my 5 o'clock movie. i decided to catch 3 movies this time, of course i only pay once. it's bloody expensive now! it's now 4.90 for students you know. it's like they increase the price every month! initially i was thinking of watching just 2 movies, but then with the increased ticket price, i decided to catch 3 movies and padan muka odeon haha.

the 1st movie that i watched was In Good Company. Topher Grace is soooo HOT HOT HOT! oh i like innocent looking guys. with skinny body. *drooling cair cair. scarlet johansen wasnt bad, she is pretty, but not stunning, and i cant help but wonder how a petite skinny girl who has thin arms, thighs and bum, but a massive anterior assets. hmm. but i think the best compliment went to dennis quidd, he was very good in this movie. and there was also the CSI las vegas women in this movie, i cant remember her name, she plays dennis quidd's pregnant wife. the overall movie was good, better that average, but the ending was not like i expected, but it was worth to watch. i give 7 out of 10 for this movie.

the 2nd movie was Shall We Dance. it was ok-ish. there were some illogical events on that movie. like how illogical it would be when a teenager who is in the middle of group outing with his friends (here it is called pub crawling) and then met his dad on the way and then decided to invite him along? i dont think so. this doesnt happen in real world. and his dad (richard gere) was in suits all along and he followed his son and the gang to pub/club, and one of the son's girlfriend asked the dad to dance. what? old people dont mix with young people, maybe in church etc, but not in clubs/pubs. and then how can a famous dancer (or should i say latin ballroom dancer, if anyone thought of other kind of dancer like pole dancer haha) invites the launderette people to a formal dance event? nadine told me that maybe these 2 people are closed but it is awkward right? oh maybe i was just being ridiculous over small unimportant things here. good performance from susan sarandon, richard gere was ok-ish, jennifer lopez's was rather emotional, but that night i declared that she has the best body ever ever! such a beautiful and perfect being, i mean physical wise. mak oi, lawa nyer ko... and she portrayed well as a lady who is very much in love with dancing. overall, i give 6 out of 10, it supposed to be 5, but then jlo's body made it 6 hehe bias bias

and the last one was Ocean Twelve. honestly, i was rather dissappointed. the movie was actually ok-ish, better then 5, but not good, if you know what i'm saying. maybe it was because i had a high expectation on that movie. because the Ocean Eleven was such a good movie + with its high profile actors, everyone expects more. the end was predictable, and i thought catherine zeta jones was ordinary looking. she is not stunning, she's pretty though, but again beauty is subjective. and i have to admit that brad pitt IS indeed the sexiest man alive. i saw Mr & Mrs Smith's preview beforehand and i couldnt wait to watch it! anyway, oceon twelve was ok-ish, it is rather stupid i might say, when julia roberts plays herself in that movie. and the fact that her real life husband called danny, and then george clooney who plays his husband in that movie is called danny as well. ha ha. overall i give 6.5 out of 10, mostly for the acting quality, but with a rather weak plot.

i had this 3-in-a-go movie plan sorted out, with each movie's timetable and length time, so that i can watch one movie directly after the other. it was suceessful, i managed to watch all 3 in the row, but then i forgot an important thing. the last movie finished at 12. and the last bus to home was 11.30. pandaaiiii. so i had to walk back home, alone, freezing mad cold, at 12. pandaaii elly pandaaii

sunday morning was another story. SNOW!! finally finally snow has arrived in newcastle. tebal, about 3-4 inches (i know wirda, this is nothing compared to michigan). i slept rather late the night before and planned to woke up late on sunday morning. then about 10-ish i heard yus called 'sape nk main snow..'. i'm always excited with snow, so i decided to drag myself out of the bed to join them. such a good time we had this morning. nadine and shanti joined us later and we built a snowman! it was my 1st ever snowman. besarrr. and the usual..snow fight! hehe best best. it was actually my 1st proper snow fight as well, best best, thanks nadine for the gloves. took some good pictures too :)

then we went back home at 1-ish and yus insisted to watch pontianak haram sundal malam. i'm not a fan of horror movie (more like i am not that brave to watch any) but everybody was there so i think i might just join the group and enjoy myself with the company. it turned out that pontianak was quite a good movie. the choreography was rather good, the plot, acting, script werent bad either. you see, i dont usually watch malay movies, but i can safely say that it is a good movie. and maya karin IS beautiful. you dont have to be a mixed pan-asian with fair skin to be beautiful, and maya karin and normala samsuddin are the living prove of that.

oklah, i better go now. need to sort out my dinner soon, but think i should mandi first. brrrr sejukkkkk....

thanks zana, it's been useful.

Rank Specialty
1 dermatology (hmm..i do think i like dermo, but kdg2 geli gila)
2 emergency med (definitely NO <-- me panicky type)
3 radiology (i want this <--but a bit scared of radiation effect on fetuses)
4 pathology (hate to admit, but i do like lab works. read: CSI hehe)
5 neurology (double definitely NO NO!!)
6 allergy & immunology (interesting...nah dont think so)
7 rheumatology
8 endocrinology
9 nuclear med
10 colon & rectal surgery
11 gastroenterology
12 anesthesiology
13 pediatrics
14 psychiatry
15 occupational med
16 plastic surgery
17 ophthalmology
18 hematology
19 pulmonology
20 general internal med
21 general surgery
22 otolaryngology
23 preventive med
24 urology
25 radiation oncology (I AM SO WANTING THIS!! what? no 25?)
26 med oncology
27 infectious disease
28 nephrology
29 family practice (this is one of my main preference actually ie GP)
30 thoracic surgery (gudlak zeihan)
31 physical med & rehabilitation
32 aerospace med (oh bende ni wujud ka??)
33 obstetrics/gynecology
34 orthopaedic surgery (last ever EVER in my personal list)
35 neurosurgery (good. mmg 2nd last pun in my personal list)
36 cardiology

me <-- definite definitely NO surgery, NO paeds, NO psychitry, NO neuro

i think most likely i'll be a GP. if i got some luck + determination + optimism, maybe a radiologist/radiation oncologist. or maybe i dont practise medicine at all. maybe i do something totally out of medicine. who cares??

but radiation oncologist is such a cool term...

"The Role of Magnetic Resonance Spectroscopy in the determination of Tumour Volume for Radiotherapy Treatment Planning" got a merit woo for that essay..

hihihi :P

OH. MY. GOD.

I. CANT. BELIEVE. MY. LUCK.

I. AM. SOOOO. HAPPY. HAHAHAHAHAHA :DDDD



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when i bought the olympus last weekend with elina, the salesman asked me to leave my address and contact number for a contest. yup, you guessed it right, I WON!!

i have never won a single thing in my life, jap, let me think, nope, dont think so. so i guess my time is up!! i got a missed call this morning as i had my mobile in silent mode cos i had a clinic this morning. i dont usually call back a missed call, but this time i think it was something important as the number that appeared on my mobile screen ended up with 000, so i guess it is maybe from the meds school, or from my consultant's secretary etc. so i rang the number back when i finished my class at 4.30, and it was from johnlewis (the shop where i bought the olympus). then they told me i won the 1st place in a lucky draw (yup, i dont even have to answer a single question!). of course, as everyone would predicted, i rushed to town to pick up the gift la. they said there were 2 people who won first place and i felt sooo damn lucky. it worth 150pounds! best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best best

cant stop menyeringai (bet nadine doesnt know this word hahah)

well, i think it's the best time to write about the camera story. i dont care about other people, i am so happy right now!

it wasnt impulse buying. i wanted to buy a camera since raya, when i realised that everybody has a camera, and i didnt even own one for ages. then i went to friends' fotopages, and i felt it would rather nice to own a digital camera. but the main reason is for mr monkey. he told me once that he wanted to see more pictures of me and my surrounding, since he is 11 000km away from me. for someone who is willing to go to a cyber cafe and pays 4 ringgit an hour just to see my pictures, i am forever grateful. initially i wanted to buy a simple digital camera. am certainly not a gadget type of girl. i was looking for a straightforward, easy digi camera that doesnt cost much. from my friends, i knew i have to get a 3megapixels++ digi cam, plus 128MB memory card. full stop. wasnt looking for anything great. then about after christmas, i was about to buy a nice and simple and cheap digi cam with my gaji, then someone said 'why not you wait for a couple of months more and kumpul more money then get a nicer digi cam'. i wasnt that keen tho for that idea, as i said, i'm not buying a camera for its prize-winning functions, i just wanted a camera that take pictures and then put it in the computer and then send it to azali. full stop.

then came the ever so stylish olympus mini mju. slick gile gile. plus it comes in many cool colours. i was in love with the orange olympus. gile lawa. i never actually saw one, just watch it from a tv advert, tapi mmg la lawa. but i know it's 250pounds ++ and that doesnt include the memory card or casing. even in the internet it is still expensive, it is about 260 includes memory card + casing + postage cost. then i realised that my cheque was delayed and that more and more money was accumulated and one day i received a 300++ cheque. cool. then came elina. she's the best luck charm anyone can have.

see, it wasnt impulse buying. i've been longing to own a digi camera for sometime, and done some research about it.

she brought me to johnlewis, a big shop in newcastle where i seldom go. she wanted to show me the olympus itself, cos apparently there is only the silver or black olympus in dixons or argos. there are 6 colours all together; black, silver, white, orange, blue and red. i was eager to see the orange olympus, but i knew i wanted the red when i saw one. its proper name is velvet red, for me it is metallic reddish pink peach. LAAWWWAAAAAA. cair cair.. and that's not all. the salesman said there was a promotion at the store, for the weekend only, the olympus price was 199pounds + a free 128MB memory card. but i told him i wanted a case for the camera. he smiled and said slowly that he might have an extra case. leather case tuh for mju camera. i knew i couldnt get any cheaper anywhere else (in the uk la) so i bought it with a (very) big smile on my face. still have it tho :DDDDD

have i told you that the salesman took me and elina picture together (with the olympus la) and printed it in 2 copies for each of us (with the printer above lah). baik gile.

and today i received a gift worth 150 pounds. i should be happy right? bet i am :DDD

ya Allah bosannye psychiatry!

still terkial2 lagi nk abiskan keje. waaaaaaaaaa

serious tak leh concentrate. tibe2 terus rase ngantuk bile try nk taip keje. tu lom lagi bukak buku! nk tercabut biji mata........zzzzzzz

happyV. wa wa wa miss mr monkey.....

sigh..camne nk siapkan keje nih..3 cases + 1 presentation + oral assessment waaaaaaaa

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sejuk gile

i'm addicted to pineapple juice

waaaaaa unipolar bipolar schneider's first rank thought broadcasting CAGE hypomania zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

oh my new mini mju gua lap uuu

bosan bosan bosan

desperately nk baby. nak baby nak baby nak baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby...wat to do..no sperm ahaks. plus dont think anyone want to have a psycho mother

dermalogica or lancome? decision decision

next workbag or nine west shoes? dream on. fat chance haha

okeh, i've made up my mind. tv here i come!