My World

weh aku nak balik ni weh

(yeah yeah we alreadi know that)

am fully packed.

(since last week hehe)

ok elly, you definitely need to sleep now. it's half 2 in the morning, and your train is at half 6. about 3 hours of sleep?

am actually dreading for the day i'm coming back (aiya so fast thinking aa? what to do)


it's good to travel with someone who is laid-back. it tones you down a lil bit.

so the journey begins.. klia here i come!

just chatted with my other half at msn :) he's at work now.

i'll keep this short and simple. i'll try hehe. it's 2 in the morning and i'm dead sleepy.

finally finished my exams. 2 papers. the one that i had today was harder. lots of pharmacology! freaking loads! name 3 example of cox2 inhibitors (what? i only know cox1 huhu), side effects of carbamazepine (it can be anything!), teratogens yada yada yada. yesterday papers got cancer genetics. hMSH2, MYH, APC, BRCA2 bloody hell. i only know the last one. whatever.

am going back on saturday! ellina and i (no, i wont kick your ass if you walk slowly to the airport, trust me, i'll be taking beta blocker that day, so i'll definitely be calmer) will take a train from newcastle to glasgow at half six on the saturday morning. then our flight from there is at quarter past one, to dubai. we then gonna stuck there for 9 hours before catching the connecting flight to klia. gonna arrive at klia at 5 past 11 sunday night.

cant wait to go home (yeah yeah you know that already). am fully packed now hihi. i'll try my best to remain calm throughout the journey, no worry, i'll bring the whole rack of beta-blocker with me. maybe need to pack some camomile & lavender tea with me..

i'm very tired, body and mind, but i couldnt sleep.

these past few days were weird. like last night, i was so tired, i could barely lift a finger and my eyes were completely closed, but i couldnt sleep until 4 in the morning. at 9 this morning, i was well awake, still tired but i couldnt sleep. and yeah, i'm still tired.

i admit i took some caffeinated coffee these past few days. i know i cant tolerate caffeine very much, it makes my anxiety and palpitation worse, but one needs caffeine to stay alert and focus, especially when exams are only half a week away. fine, i didnt take any caffeinated coffee today, so i hope tonight i can have a better sleep.

or, is it because i am rather anxious about the trip back home in 6 days time?

ellina has the answer and she is damn right.

when i am anxious and panicky, i can be a pain in the ass, right?

ellina too, has the answer and damn right, she is.

fine, sometimes i can be a REAL pain in the ass.

you people definitely DONT want to see me when i'm anxious. or when i got those psycho panic attacks. i even felt dizzy afterwards, more for feeling ashamed and stupid than anything else.

one of my new year resolution: be calmer, calmer and CALMER. relax elly, relax. think i need to buy some more camomile and lavender tea

i'm going back.

yup, i'm going back. for 18 days only. what to do. well, better than not going at all. super thanks to elina, she found me a super cheap ticket.

the thing is, the excitement was disturbed by the fact that someone tried to clone my credit card. the fact that it's actually my dad's, it makes things worse. someone tried to withdraw some money on the day i was perfectly home, with the card safely with me. someone in newcastle. pelik gak. fortunately they didnt manage to get the right pin number, but the thought of someone tried to use the credit card makes me shudder.

nothing much to add. cant wait to see azali. he's gonna pick me up at the airport :) and send me to my family in ampang :)

gosh. 18 days. so much things to do. better get myself organised. i really wish i can see my friends, especially wirda, liza and mus, but dont think i have the time. the 2 weekends i'm already booked, 1st with jiman's commission in sg besi, and i got some family day to attend on the 2nd weekend. with the 4-hour rebonding session... plus making 9 lapik dulang for jiman's hantaran.. plus some picture projects..plus max time with azali.. plus elective arrangement.. shopping..food..kl-kuantan-kl-kuantan. hmm seriously i need to organise and plan my time.

sigh. malasnya nk baca buku. all in my mind now is seeing azali's face at the airport. bet i cant stop smiling that day hi hi hi :D imagine me sengih from telinga to telinga weeeeeeeeeee