hi hi hi

5/20/2008 02:31:00 AM 1 Comment »
finally i can sit down and relax a bit.

my bro jiman was discharged from ampang puteri hosp yesterday after spending 4 nights there. at the end it was dengue, as the doc predicted. thank god they gave him a week off work, so that he can rest and recover. now he's off to get some massage, and me stay at home with maisarah. i'm getting more attached to this child, she is so adorable, and cheeky as well, and i love her so much. but dont think i'm ready to have my own. noooo wayy. still got a lots of things to settle in my life. my complicated, tangled life. and i thank the almighty for that someone who is willingly to share my tears (and joy, eventually, i hope) and be part of my life and me be part of his life. ahaks! enough jiwang2 stuff, i'm really not good in this stuff hehe.

the big day is still a few months away, and being me, i like to do things early. at least i'm trying to. i know in the end it will still be kelam kabut haha. anyway the preparation has been alright, but i dont like it when people start to give advices when i didnt ask for any. i already know what i want, i really do, i've been engaged for nearly 4 years for god sake, of course i've got plenty of time to think of my dream wedding. but now people say i should do this and that, and should include this and that. stop it and buzz off! i'm not my sis nor my bro. and what's wrong with a simple wedding? 'oh no, you should include this and that becos it's the culture'. culture my ass! since when my family is into culture? i'm quite lenient right now to include a pelamin in my wedding becos it's my mum's wish, and i love and respect her enough to fulfill her wish. but it's the people other than my parents that are sibuk2 sangat. busy body! really really hate it when people start to butt in into my fucking business.

calm elly calm. this is not good for you. be calm.

you should be more open and at least ready to listen to any suggestion and advice. you dont have to accept them, just show more respect and listen.

think i should do that. more than one person told me that i'm stubborn. be calmer, and open, and less stubborn, and less defensive. the world doesnt evolve around me, you see.

calm calm

ok. think of that somebody, who has brought so much joy in your life.

*smile smile*

i'm going to see him this afternoon. HI HI HI.

ok, you can stop muntah hijau now haha. jiwang mode is SOO not me.

got to go. got to check on maisarah. she's sleeping now. oh yeah i got to mandi too. tara


Norafiza said...

eli!!!when is the big day???bagi laa hint hint hint...few more months ek??im due end of august, hopefully sempat g...nak sgt tgk korang walk down the isle :)